Almost done?

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I’m thinking, yes. My first draft is beginning to come to a close. I’m thinking that there will be about four or five more chapters, but after that, the first draft will be finished. I don’t think anyone can ever know what that feels like unless they do it themselves. This is my first novel, ever. I don’t care if it is terrible, I just know that I have been having so much fun writing it and I have learned so much. Lately, I have been having a ton of difficulty with a couple of the characters, but I have been roughly finding out what I want to happen and how they are going to develop.

I know that this thing is plagued with beginner’s mistakes, but again, I have had more fun doing this over the past four months, than anything. It’s challenging, but it’s the good kind that only helps you grow.

When I finish the first draft, I’m going to let it sit for a month or two, come back, and start the revision process. I am so excited!  Now, to go back and finish this thing. I’m going to try and finish it by the end of this week. I think that I can do it! Now, to throw away the distractions, and get typing.

Busy, busy!

Lately, I have been so busy with school and work, that I’m never really sure that I’m doing anything worth-while! I mean, yeah, I’m working for something, but damn it all if it just feels like I’m running in circles.

I have been searching for a new job lately for many reasons. A few of them being the fact that my boss is incredibly controlling and he brought me to tears because I felt that I could not do anything right by him. Since then, he’s been slightly nicer, but it was incredibly humiliating and frustrating. So, for new jobs, I’m kind of searching anywhere and everywhere for one. I’ve applied at the library, bookstores, and soon to be applying at the nearby game shop.

On the book side, well, things have slowed down a bit. The first draft of my novel has been frustrating me to no end. I feel like I have been losing my connection with my characters, and that is discouraging. The reason behind that is something that continues to elude me, but I can’t help but feel that it is my level of stress lately. A heavy school load and a negative environment at work can kill the creative process faster than an ant in a bon-fire.

Screw re-reading this and correcting any incohesive thoughts, I’m going to play a video game and eat some skittles.

A bit of advice.

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Never, ever, give up.

Those are some words that I am truly taking to heart lately. Life is not getting any easier, and if I am going to make it through and be successful, then I can not give in. I see far too many people who do and I know, for a fact, that I do not want to be them. It would be easy to give in and be selfish, but, where does that get me? No where.

My Boss Is A Jerk

He really is.
I don’t know how else to say this than, he is a major control freak.  I have been working for him nearly two years, and despite getting plenty of hours and the approval of every other human being in the building, he still feels compelled to tell me how to do things that I have done literally hundreds of times. His reasoning on how to do things is skewed and often times leaves me in a fury because he has just insulted my intelligence.

I do perfectly well in school, I do well at my job and I do it efficiently. But no, he has to control me. One of the deli ladies walked out of the store, never to return today because of the stress he creates and he had not been scheduling her enough. She had been there for three and a half years, does a fantastic job, and had relied on that income. It was good that she had just been hired somewhere else, otherwise I’m not sure what she would have done.

I just know that I’m applying wherever I can. Bookstores, the library, anywhere, that will get me away from this greedy controlling bastard.

Hitting this in before work

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Just before I head off to work, I felt like writing something. I know the day is going to bring me a lot of frustration, so I felt like entering something here. It probably won’t even be anything that means a lot. Just words.
But, I’m working on a small poem. I want to get better at poetry, but I’ve never been taught, so I’m trying my hand at it. We shall see what it does.